sweet dream or a beautiful nightmare!?

i made the deans list for spring quarter at college. wow, i'm still shocked even thinking about it. i read the letter the first time, shook my head & then i had to set it down and read it again. there it was in bold black letters "congradulations, you've made the deans list". i didn't know whether to squeal, scream, jump, or dance. maybe, i should have done a mixture of all four. my heart filled with glee. it was like a rush of everything that i went through to get that far and excitement all in the same moment. then, i thought about how some people work their whole lives and do not get an ounce of recognition for it and thought to myself. "yeah, i did a great job but i shouldn't get a gold metal for it". those people serving our country, saving lives in hospitals, and doing research to cure diseases should be recognized with honor, not a silly college student. however, i am honored and blessed to have a piece of paper with "congradulations" and my name on it because someone out there thought that i deserve it.

i have been thinking alot today about my future. i at first set out in the psychological field to help kids but now, i am more interested in doing charity work. i would rather help people raise awareness for diseases and other things like the food pantry that helps so many people out without getting acknowledged. helping others is the one un - selfish most beautiful thing a person can do. i'd also like to start cake decorating classes. i've always had a fascination with making beautiful things for other people like wedding cakes, home - made cards etc....it makes me smile to know that i have made someone else smile. it is the single most greatest feeling a person can get knowing that they have made a difference in someone's life if even for a small moment.

i started out today with a bad attitude from being woke up to soon among other nasty situations. i admit, i was being "nasty"and said some things that i shouldn't have said, things that i don't mean. however, we all have our moments. my goal for today, is to continue helping others and keep a smile on my face. no matter what is going on in my life, i always think about how someone out there may have it worse. therefore, i should count my blessings and be happy <3